My Recap of Be-All: Part 1 of 4

by Jessica De Leon on June 8, 2009

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I attended the Be-All Conference from June 5th to June 7th, here is my journal of my experiences. Because of the long length, I have decided to divide it into a four part series.

My wife and I arrived at the Be-All Conference Friday afternoon, and after checking in to the hotel we made our way up to the room, which was very nice. There was a bedroom, a kitchenette and an extra sitting room.While I showered and shaved, my wife placed combinations of my clothes and accessories on the bed for my choosing.

I ended up wearing this to the banquet

After taking about two hours to get ready, it was finally time to venture out for the very first time as Jessica. Now, my dear readers, up until this point you have read many of my thoughts, experiences and even advice on crossdressing, but all of that simply could not prepare me for the wave of emotion that overcame me at this exact moment.

I was nervous, insecure, self-conscious, scared, excited, reluctant and on top of all that I had some difficulty breathing. My wife was an absolute angel, as she not only aided me in the transformation process but also was right there by my side as Jessica took her first strides into the world. Mind you, I was well aware that I was at a transgendered conference and that I would safe from not only harmful judgment but also physical harm. Despite this, it was still an arduous task to make my way to the hotel elevator.

I wore the sweater and skirt for my first steps

As we descended, a few other fellow crossdressers entered, making my anxiety subside. Because all of the seminars had ended, we walked around the atrium, where several vendors had set up shop. After a few minutes of this, we both realized that we hadn’t much time to prepare ourselves for dinner. We returned to our room and started getting ready for the evening. I changed outfits and my wife redid my eye makeup to be more suitable for the dinner and show.

Unfortunately, we arrived at the dining hall just as dinner was starting. For most, this would certainly be just a minor inconvenience, but for me, it was nearly disastrous. You see, I am an admitted introvert and suffer from a bad case of social anxiety. While I love the idea of getting together socially and I almost always enjoy myself once in said situation, the moments leading up to it can be devastating on my emotions.

Please read Part Two here.