Comments on: I’m So Ordinary

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 18:06:22 +0000

So true

By: Julie M Shaw

Julie M Shaw — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 16:45:37 +0000

I agree, Jessica. I also agree with Miss K — so much of who we are seems to be tied in with what others THINK we are. We (all) need to just BE – live in the now, as they say. If we are truthful with ourselves, the rest of society be “darned” (trying to keep this entry “Family Friendly” ~~giggle~~).

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 07:26:45 +0000

Exactly, I completely agree. I just feel a bit sad when my friends, fraternity brothers and cousins just ignore my updates, it makes me feel even more distant

By: Miss K

Miss K — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 07:25:04 +0000

If I can be blunt, ultimately if you’re being true to your inner self, why care about what reaction you’re eliciting?

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 06:36:11 +0000

Lol, nice analogy. My increasing comfort with my transgendered nature has allowed me to more easily express myself even while not dressed, just as you say (bright clothes, earrings, etc). It is a nice change from repressing everything

By: Leslie Ann

Leslie Ann — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 06:35:34 +0000

I was as bland as unbuttered toast for 40-plus years. But when the CD thing started to overwhelm me almost two years ago, I started moving toward more androgyny in my male life. I wear very bright clothes now, and keep my nails unusually long. Soon I may have pierced ears. I’ve become more gregarious as the female rides closer to the surface. It’s a kind of stealth integration, I guess. I suspect people would not be as surprised by my secret life now.

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 01:50:44 +0000

Thanks, Lynnd. I’m not offended at all , don’t worry. As far as being transgendered, I feel that I was born this way. However, in the rest of my life, I think that I am pretty extraordinary, not sure what everyone else thinks .

I appreciate your comment

By: lynnd

lynnd — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 00:12:36 +0000

Is there any part of you that blurs the gender lines just to be different, extraordinary or crazy?

Interesting question. First let me say, from reading your post you are not just ordinary. But let me pose the next question, perhaps as devil’s advocate (please don’t be offended, I am a very supportive GGfriend). If you choose to dress to be different or extraordinary, then why do you choose something that seemingly needs to remain so private? I am going to guess many CDers will say it is not a choice it is part of who they are. And as a GGfriend I find that anything but ordinary, it is fun and fascinating, so much more than the guy next door.

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 23:20:46 +0000

Yea, facebook is weird about deleting accounts.

But, yes, what you experienced is what I’m going through, I wonder what would happen if I deleted my account

By: Dekka

Dekka — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 22:03:21 +0000

In part, that’s why I tried to (unsuccessfully) get out of facebook (that thing is like the Hotel California). No one of my friends, who I know in real life, posted comments on my updates. And when I “deleted” the account, I started to get e-mails from these same people asking what the hell happened, that they enjoyed (?) my posts. Jim Morrison said it: people are strange.

If your life is TOO normal you are not interesting enough to get even a simple “hello, how are you”.

And while that account was deleted, I’ve been told that my name and some data is still active.

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 21:25:13 +0000

Exactly, but a lot of people don’t understand that. Many assume that because I’m quiet that I’m just not interesting or exciting, part of it is that I take a while to warm up to people. I keep myself guarded in that sense.

Thanks for complimenting my blog, I appreciate it , you’re so kind.

It is a funny world, so many try to be unique but without going too far outside of the boundaries, it’s quite perplexing.

By: Lynn Jones

Lynn Jones — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:07:15 +0000

Quiet doesn’t always mean boring just as much as loud doesn’t always equate to interesting. There, there’s my fortune cookie line for the day

Without wanting to sound like a kiss-ass, average isn’t a word I’d use to describe you or this blog.

Not sure about the angle on us dressing to be unique. But… there’s that weird thing where we follow fashion (to a point) but equally, we try not to look exactly like everyone else. It’s a funny world isn’t it.

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 19:34:01 +0000

Thanks for your input Demi, I’m glad that I am not alone in this type of thinking. It was actually just something that I was pondering for a few days, and you’re right when you mention the “headless torsos”

By: Demi Lautrec

Demi Lautrec — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:44:54 +0000

I think you may be onto something here, at least for a segment of us tgirls. It’s so difficult to generalize across the spectrum but i’d venture to say there are more of us like you and I (ie introverted and “ordinary”, heaven forebid) than not. It’s the tip of the iceberg that is otherwise extroverted enough to be “comfortably out”, or downright flamboyant. The rest of us go on with our lives of quiet desperation (think of the headless torso people, or those who havent even ventured onto the internet) and occasionally take a walk on the wild (ie, pretty) side. For myself, the more i go out as Demi the more i want to keep a reign on the other part of me so as not to cast suspicion. Not very illuminating im afraid, as to me it’s all so very complicated whatever our ways and means. But i like your observations here.

By: Jessica De Leon

Jessica De Leon — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 12:55:27 +0000

I can definitely relate to that. When I go too long without dressing, I get a big case of the blahs.

I’ve typically made all the “right” decisions in my life, so maybe that’s why people ignore me lol